House to myself
Basketball on TV
Ice crackling in the glass of sweet tea I just poured. A great end to a nice day off.
Today truly is one of the best days I have had in months. I did a bunch of nothing. I slept in very late, did some laundry while wasting the day. Went to dinner with a friend, stopped by Target, chatted on the phone with another friend, came home and prayed and worshiped a bit and here I am at 10:30pm.
Nothing seemed so special about this day but it has just had a wonderful feeling. As I plopped down on the couch it hit me. NOTHING happened today. The last few weeks have been very, very stressful for me. Even worse then life was when I was homeless, struggling, unemployed. These last few weeks have been a painful pulling of great blessing and set-back. Great groupon sales to a phone dying when I needed it most. Finally having days full of appointments to having the car break down. Having a huge revelation from GOD and trusting Him 100% despite my doubts and un-surety in others involved to having those others not even grasp what I was talking about and rejecting it outright, without even praying or thinking though it. (This one turned out amazing however, What GOD did after to teach me about a new level of trust in Him that was not dependent on the reaction or decisions of others was astonishing, I am humbled.) Receiving the first checks from the groupon only to have problem after problem with my bank and access to my money.
Today however, there was no great blessing just a relaxing day. There was also no big tragedy or situation that put me in a position to not follow though on things I had said I would do, I just relaxed.
I am realizing I am thankful for days like this because I don’t think I do well in the middle. Give me tough impossible situations and I will trust GOD though it. I will do what I can and leave what I can’t in His hands. Give me blessing after blessing and He gets all the credit and I am thankful beyond words. Back and forth. I just don’t do it well. I pray that the enemy gives up and takes a break for a while. I know I can outlast him but I like days like today.